My cousin asked me 2 kiss him i kissed him he jumped on top of me i wanted him 2 he is my first cousin?

im so attracted 2 him all the girls in his school tink he is hot but i told my parents tat he came on to me and now he hates me we kissed in the past wen we were 10 then we kissed last 2010 christmas night we were all alone my realtionships have failed so far could it be tat me and my cuzin are meant 2 be together plz help me